Post by Izabella Riddle on Oct 17, 2006 2:12:29 GMT -5
Lyrics: Holding My Last Breath by Evenescence
Hold on to me love
You know I can’t stay long
John ran over to the figure on the ground dropping to his knees beside the pale body. He pulled Rodney close to him knowing he would die before help arrived. It was all John’s fault.
All I wanted to say
Was I love you
And I’m not afraid
“John,” Rodney mumbled
“Shh…save your strength,” john said
“I wanted to say that I love you,” he said looking up into John’s hazel eyes, “and I’m not afraid anymore.”
Can you hear me
Can you feel me in your arms
Rodney wondered if the power down of the machine hadn’t been successful or if John was too much in shock to hear what he was saying.
Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured life
It ends here tonight
Rodney took a slow breath holding it knowing as long as he had air he was alive. All he could think about was John and the life they had made together. First becoming best friends, then lovers, and finally husbands a month ago. Rodney let the breath go slowly knowing it all ended here.
I’ll miss the winter
A world of fragile things
“Do you remember our first kiss John,” Rodney asked
John just nodded his head
“We were stuck off world in a snow storm and it seemed we would loose it but we didn’t,” Rodney said then coughed blood sliding down his cheek from the corner of his mouth.
Look for me in the white forest
Hiding in a hollow tree
Come find me
“We played hide and seek the next morning in the forest so white with snow. Do you remember what you kept yelling,” he asked softly
“Come find me,” John said just a softly pulling Rodney closer to his chest.
“And I did, we found each other that day,” Rodney said coughing once again
I know you hear me
I can taste it in your tears
` Rodney smiled to himself knowing John could still hear him. He could taste John’s sadness in the tears that rolled down John’s face and onto his own.
Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured life
It ends here tonight
Rodney felt John draw in a shaky breath and he held his own. The love he felt for John was safe inside both of them. Their lives had been hard but being together made is easier. John and Rodney were the heart of the expedition John kept the city going and Rodney kept the city safe. That would all end on another world.
Closing your eyes to disappear
You pray your dreams
Will leave you here
John closes his eyes and takes hold of Rodney’s hand. Around then a room appears. Rodney is standing there, as is john. Rodney hugs John and kisses him with all his heart.
But still you wake
And know the truth
No one’s there
John’s eyes fly open and Rodney and the room disappear. He knows the truth even as the he had established with Rodney long ago is lost. He knows as he holds his lover no one is there.
Say goodnight
Don’t be afraid
Rodney heard the voice as he kissed John. He didn’t know who it was but he didn’t fear it. John disappeared from the link and with him went Rodney’s heart and his fear.
Calling me, calling me
As you fade to black
Rodney opened his eyes hearing John talking to him finally.
“I love you Rodney,” John said, “I always will.”
“Bye John,” Rodney murmured as the man holding him slipped into the black that clouded his vision.
“Rodney, Rodney,” John screamed, “no please don’t leave me, please come back.”
Say goodnight
Holding my last breath
John cradled his love rocking him back and forth saying goodnight when the sun sunk beneath the horizon holding his last breath as Rodney took his last.
Don’t be afraid
Safe inside myself
John wasn’t afraid for Rodney anymore. He understood it now almost hating its simple explanation. Rodney’s safe inside himself now no one can hurt him anymore not even John. The machine was gone it wouldn’t be turned on again and no one from Atlantis would ever return here the cost had already been too much. Just as John would never forgive himself he would never stop until the Wraith and Genii were stopped.
Calling me, calling me
Are all my thoughts of you
John doesn’t hear the chirping in his ear. Their rescue has arrived but it’s too late. Their calling for anyone on the surface and all John can think about is his Rodney. He hears voices in his ears and knows that its his team talking around him.
Sweet raptured life
It ends here tonight
John and Rodney are beamed aboard the Dedalus. They are beamed to the infirmary where Carson sedates John to get him to let go of Rodney. All the time John mutters it’s his fault their lives ended tonight because of him, Rodney’s death was his fault.
Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured life
It ends here tonight
“Dr. Rodney McKay-Sheppard died trying to save those that he loves and cared for. We will always remember him as will ever person he ever helped. He helped all of us keep this city save and frankly saved us all more times then he should have needed to. Rodney will never be forgotten and I know for sure that one day when everyone knows about the things we have done here he will be remembered forever,” Elizabeth said
She went back to stand next to John. She took a hold of his hand as John cried silently. In John’s other hand he held the badges from Rodney’s uniform. The first his SGA-1 badges signifying his part of John’s team and the second the flag of Canada signifying Rodney’s country of birth.
Elizabeth knew Rodney had been buried with John’s dog tags as well as with his wedding ring that Radek had made for him and John. The gravestone was set in place and everyone went back to Atlantis in tears.
Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured life
It ends here tonight
John took a deep breath with drawing into himself finding that link that was missing its other half. John and Rodney had found it by accident when they had first been together. They were connected by their ancient gene and no one, not even John or Rodney knew how it had happened. He misses Rodney so much all he know now is the cold metal he’s touching. He remembers their love uttering goodbye to him, once again he keeps his breath and it lasts forever. Atlantis screams and everyone in the city and on the mainland knows. It ended tonight.
Hold on to me love
You know I can’t stay long
John ran over to the figure on the ground dropping to his knees beside the pale body. He pulled Rodney close to him knowing he would die before help arrived. It was all John’s fault.
All I wanted to say
Was I love you
And I’m not afraid
“John,” Rodney mumbled
“Shh…save your strength,” john said
“I wanted to say that I love you,” he said looking up into John’s hazel eyes, “and I’m not afraid anymore.”
Can you hear me
Can you feel me in your arms
Rodney wondered if the power down of the machine hadn’t been successful or if John was too much in shock to hear what he was saying.
Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured life
It ends here tonight
Rodney took a slow breath holding it knowing as long as he had air he was alive. All he could think about was John and the life they had made together. First becoming best friends, then lovers, and finally husbands a month ago. Rodney let the breath go slowly knowing it all ended here.
I’ll miss the winter
A world of fragile things
“Do you remember our first kiss John,” Rodney asked
John just nodded his head
“We were stuck off world in a snow storm and it seemed we would loose it but we didn’t,” Rodney said then coughed blood sliding down his cheek from the corner of his mouth.
Look for me in the white forest
Hiding in a hollow tree
Come find me
“We played hide and seek the next morning in the forest so white with snow. Do you remember what you kept yelling,” he asked softly
“Come find me,” John said just a softly pulling Rodney closer to his chest.
“And I did, we found each other that day,” Rodney said coughing once again
I know you hear me
I can taste it in your tears
` Rodney smiled to himself knowing John could still hear him. He could taste John’s sadness in the tears that rolled down John’s face and onto his own.
Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured life
It ends here tonight
Rodney felt John draw in a shaky breath and he held his own. The love he felt for John was safe inside both of them. Their lives had been hard but being together made is easier. John and Rodney were the heart of the expedition John kept the city going and Rodney kept the city safe. That would all end on another world.
Closing your eyes to disappear
You pray your dreams
Will leave you here
John closes his eyes and takes hold of Rodney’s hand. Around then a room appears. Rodney is standing there, as is john. Rodney hugs John and kisses him with all his heart.
But still you wake
And know the truth
No one’s there
John’s eyes fly open and Rodney and the room disappear. He knows the truth even as the he had established with Rodney long ago is lost. He knows as he holds his lover no one is there.
Say goodnight
Don’t be afraid
Rodney heard the voice as he kissed John. He didn’t know who it was but he didn’t fear it. John disappeared from the link and with him went Rodney’s heart and his fear.
Calling me, calling me
As you fade to black
Rodney opened his eyes hearing John talking to him finally.
“I love you Rodney,” John said, “I always will.”
“Bye John,” Rodney murmured as the man holding him slipped into the black that clouded his vision.
“Rodney, Rodney,” John screamed, “no please don’t leave me, please come back.”
Say goodnight
Holding my last breath
John cradled his love rocking him back and forth saying goodnight when the sun sunk beneath the horizon holding his last breath as Rodney took his last.
Don’t be afraid
Safe inside myself
John wasn’t afraid for Rodney anymore. He understood it now almost hating its simple explanation. Rodney’s safe inside himself now no one can hurt him anymore not even John. The machine was gone it wouldn’t be turned on again and no one from Atlantis would ever return here the cost had already been too much. Just as John would never forgive himself he would never stop until the Wraith and Genii were stopped.
Calling me, calling me
Are all my thoughts of you
John doesn’t hear the chirping in his ear. Their rescue has arrived but it’s too late. Their calling for anyone on the surface and all John can think about is his Rodney. He hears voices in his ears and knows that its his team talking around him.
Sweet raptured life
It ends here tonight
John and Rodney are beamed aboard the Dedalus. They are beamed to the infirmary where Carson sedates John to get him to let go of Rodney. All the time John mutters it’s his fault their lives ended tonight because of him, Rodney’s death was his fault.
Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured life
It ends here tonight
“Dr. Rodney McKay-Sheppard died trying to save those that he loves and cared for. We will always remember him as will ever person he ever helped. He helped all of us keep this city save and frankly saved us all more times then he should have needed to. Rodney will never be forgotten and I know for sure that one day when everyone knows about the things we have done here he will be remembered forever,” Elizabeth said
She went back to stand next to John. She took a hold of his hand as John cried silently. In John’s other hand he held the badges from Rodney’s uniform. The first his SGA-1 badges signifying his part of John’s team and the second the flag of Canada signifying Rodney’s country of birth.
Elizabeth knew Rodney had been buried with John’s dog tags as well as with his wedding ring that Radek had made for him and John. The gravestone was set in place and everyone went back to Atlantis in tears.
Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured life
It ends here tonight
John took a deep breath with drawing into himself finding that link that was missing its other half. John and Rodney had found it by accident when they had first been together. They were connected by their ancient gene and no one, not even John or Rodney knew how it had happened. He misses Rodney so much all he know now is the cold metal he’s touching. He remembers their love uttering goodbye to him, once again he keeps his breath and it lasts forever. Atlantis screams and everyone in the city and on the mainland knows. It ended tonight.